ive got my ring back! (: and it still fits my finger..well its eh, a little bit loose thou (:
am glad that i finally have the courage to look you in the eye too. bcos for all these while, i haven been able to look at you directly. i was scared that ill miss you even more.

but i have to admit that when i saw you yesterday, i realised i still cant get over you. whatever ive been doing over these 6mths to make myself not think of you- 'things like keeping myself occupied, going out with friends, trying to act happy...' all goes to make me miss you even more when im tired out at the end of each day. and however carefree i may seem to ppl out there, i am not happy at all.

i even tried going out with a new guy. i thought finding a replacement could make me forget you.
i dono how it happened but i really was thinking of you when he kissed me :(

i feel soo soo stupid that this didnt work. i really really regret not loving you right when we were together. and im really really sad i dont have you by my side anymore. i was stressed out with schwork , really. taking 6modules that sem wasnt easy and i am the kind who'll just say 'im not stressed' when what really is was that im really stressed out. and sorry, that i took out my stress on you cos youre the closest boy i have. i know i shldnt have threw my tantrums on you. sorry.