this is not gonna be an emo post,
but a post to tell myself that im all good for moving on (:

the thing that im feeling so lost all these months after uve left me was probably the one thing. the sense of security i had when i was with you.
you were always there to make sure my day is good. you were always there for me and let me know everything's gonna be alright. and that was all i wanted from you. but now that youre gone, somehow, it felt like youve left an empty space somewhere in me.
maybe its cause i need you. or maybe i just need a boyfriend.
i wasnt like that before i had you. i was self-sufficient and i have always lived my days happily even w/o a boyfriend. i didnt even think that i would need a boyfriend to be truly happy. but here i am. now different. wanting to have someone to rely on. i dont like this feeling. i dont like it that im always thinking about our past and missing people. it would be okay if these memories pop up once in a while but ugghh it gets annoying when they never stop popping up in my head. but thankfully and hopefully, one failed relationship ought to make me a more mature girl.

you! you just told me youll still be there for me. as a friend (:
please please keep to it cos if theres one day ill ever need you, please please really be there for me (: